Fanfic Creation - RoswellOracle Fanfiction




Fanfic Creation

I've been asked by several people who have read my stories if I would give a little more info about how I came up with ideas for fics and about how long it took me to write them from start to finish, so I am posting that info here.

Since I posted this page, I've had requests to tell how I came up with names for my stories, so I've added that info.


***Warning***
This page contains spoilers for my stories, so don't read if you don't want to know.



The fanfics are mostly listed in the order that I started them. As you can see some of them overlap.
You can jump right to a fic by clicking the name.


Alpha & Omega
- finished posting Mar 2005

Getting Well
- posted May 2005

Soaring with Angels
- finished posting May 2006

Hands of an Artist
- posted Sept 2005

Body of an Artist
- finished posting Nov 2005

I'm Dying Tonight
- posted Nov 2005

Eyes of an Artist
- finished posting Feb 2006

Mouth of an Artist
- finished posting Jul 2006

Cravings
- finished posting Aug 2006

Waiting
- posted Sept 2006

Appetite
- finished posting Feb 2007

Mind of an Artist
- finished posting May 2008

Hunger
- finished posting Feb 2009

Never Underestimate Destiny
- finished posting Jan 2014

Saving Max
- finished posting Dec 2009

Arms of an Artist
- finished posting Feb 2014

Anniversary
- posted Apr 2009

A Day in the Life of the Eraser Room
- posted Aug 2009

Lollipop
- finished posting Jun 2010

Watching
- posted Jun 2012

Queen of Pain
- currently ongoing

Price of Lust
- currently ongoing

Brick
- posted Oct 2014












Alpha & Omega

aka A&O

CATEGORY: M/L, CC, The whole gang and others but focusing on Max & Liz.
RATING: TEEN maybe some MATURE
SUMMARY:
The story is mostly about Max & Liz and their connection, but it starts at the beginning, with the '47 crash and goes up to season 2 and beyond. If you like Roswell history, conspiracy theories, or are a Liz Myther, this is the story for you.

The story explains the crash and capture of the shape shifters by the government, the skin's arrival and settlement on Earth, Nasedo's journey after his escape from the special unit, including the stories of with Atherton, River Dog, Hubble & the skins, what happened to the other shape shifters, the original events before Liz & future Max changed things, the story of the dupes, what really happened at the New York summit, the events that led to Alex's death, what happened on Antar in the podsters' other life, the true purpose of the Granolith and what I think should have happened instead of the garbage that was season 3.


HISTORY OF ALPHA & OMEGA:
- started research Mar 2002
- started writing Oct 2002
- finished writing Dec 2004
- started posting Jan 2005
- finished posting Mar 2005

I was always interested in the backstory of what happened on the alien's home planet before they left and I used to go to multiple web sites and board reading all the threads that dealt with theories about this.

I was also interested in 'Liz Mythology'. Basically we believed that there was more to Liz's backstory and she was more 'important' or connected to the aliens than had been revealed.

As the show progressed, I was fascinated by all the things that were never explained, that became known as the CHADS - continuity holes and discrepancies.

Then one night February 10th, 2001, I had a dream where I was the wife of King Zan on Antar and it was just when Khivar was taking over. I was Ava, but also Liz at the same time. It was devastating to me in a bad and good way. It seemed so very real and I was thrilled and horrified and felt I had a little better understanding of what might have happened. It affected me for weeks and I couldn't stop thinking about it.

Liz being Ava made me look at Roswell in an entirely different way, and it actually made a lot of things make sense.

So I started to wonder if I could write a story that would cover all of these areas. I'd written a few small stories before, but I'd never finished one and this story seemed a bit overwhelming. But the show inspired me again - and not in a good way.

The second half of season two was playing, and things just kept going downhill in my opinion. The prom, Alex died, Tess and Max were getting close, Liz was kind of seeing Sean, and I was hating it. Then Tess and Max got together and she was pregnant I nearly stopped watching. I am a huge dreamer after all ;). But with all the spoilers we were getting, it seemed like season 3 would address a lot of that and it wouldn't be what it appeared.

I waited, hoping, but season 3 completely disappointed me, and it just kept getting worse and worse, and by the time it ended I hated the whole thing.

So I decided that I would write my story and make Roswell what I wanted it to be.

I would start at the beginning on the Alien's home planet and go all the way through the years between the crash and the series, and fill in all the unanswered questions that I could.

I also wanted to show what happened in Future Max and Liz's timeline that made them decide to send Max back in time. And I included an additional timeline that led to someone wanting Liz dead, to explain why she was shot.

So I rewatched all the episodes, made all kinds of notes, and started on outlines. I did all kinds of research about the 'real' crash, Buddhism, sweat ceremonies, the southwest region, project blue book, the FBI, blood types, the subway system in NY, and anything else I thought would make the story more authentic, and I started writing.

It was hard at first, but I knew I wanted my story to be told, so I stuck with it. I would concentrate on the parts that interested me at the moment, so I never got bored. I did have to do rewrites, but I had most of it planned before I started writing because there are so many intertwining storylines and I wanted to make sure I didn't miss anything.

Ironically I did leave out one thing I meant to include. I had intended to make a bigger part for the native american deputy Owen Blackwood, but I completely forgot him. So sorry Owen.

And since the story was so complicated, I finished writing it before I started posting.



Character Name origins - I just wanted to add a note about the character names in the story. For the alien names, I didn't want to give them names that sounded like they could come from Earth. So I pretty much just tried out word syllables together until I made something that I thought sounded alien.

For some of the aliens, I made up names that sounded similar to name they took on Earth, like Nicholas' real name is Nicaron, Vanessa's real name is Nesta, and Ida's real name is Idos. It seemed likely to me that if they had a name that was close to a human name, they would probably go with that.

Zan's family name, Tageonant, I derived from the English king Richard Plantagenet, just because I thought it was a cool name. The name for Khivar's people, the Harcions, I derived from the evil Duke in the Dune books, Harkonnen. Khivar's family name, Roistar, I made up using 'Roi' which means king. I thought it was fitting since he was willing to do pretty much anything to become king.

For Khivar on Earth, I choose the name Hale Sinclair. Hale means hero, which clearly Khivar thought he was. Sinclair means clear sign. Which was a little hint as to his real identity. Sinclair is also a derivation of St. Clair which is the name of a royal line.



Name origin - What to name this story was really tough for me. I wanted something that didn't give away the twists, but I was also coming up with a ton of names that seemed to only apply to one part or chapter of the story. So I decided to use those names on the chapters. Then I still had the problem of what to name the story. I really wrestled with it, trying to come up with something that covered this huge epic of a story.

In the end I settled on Alpha & Omega, which are the first and last letters in the Greek alphabet. The phrase "I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end, the first and the last." is from the Bible, Revelations, if I remember correctly. It is God describing himself. Now, I am not claiming to be god, and my story really has nothing to do with any kind of religion, but the phrase has been used in various places over the years, mainly shortened to 'alpha and omega' and has come to mean the beginning and the end.

The name fits because my story does go through and show everything from the beginning of the Roswell story, from how it started back on Antar, and goes all the way to the end of the story, defeating Khivar and freeing the Antarian people and reinstalling Max as king. But really it was kind of a cop-out on my part naming it that, because I couldn't think of anything better. ;) I'd love to come up with a better name for the story, but at this point it is kinda too late.









Getting Well


CATEGORY: Tess POV, M/L
RATING: YTEEN
SUMMARY: One part future fic


HISTORY OF GETTING WELL:
- no research
- started writing Apr 2005
- finished writing May 2005
- posted May 2005

Getting Well was based on a dream that I had in Nov 2000. I had writen it up and posted it on my dream page, but I thought it could also make an interesting short story because it was the first time I actually felt bad for Tess.

I tried to keep the fuzzy, dream-like quality that I remember having when I was dreaming it, while also showing her feelings. It starts off like a fairy tale, with Tess having everything she thought she wanted, but ends with reality because she finally realizes that she is in love with someone who will never lover her.



Name origin - In my dream and in the story, Tess is recovering from a long illness, that is really a metaphor for her refusal to accept the reality that Max does not love her. Once she starts to believe the truth, she is on her way to getting well.








Soaring with Angels

aka Soaring

CATEGORY: M/L, I/Kh, CC, UC
The whole gang and others, but focusing on Max and Liz.
RATING: ADULT for language, violence, character death, & sexual situations
SUMMARY:
The fic deals with the dark side that every person has, and reasons it may be unleashed.


HISTORY OF SOARING WITH ANGELS:
Main story
- started research Feb 2005
- started writing Apr 2005
- finished writing Aug 2005
- started posting Sept 2005
- finished posting Jan 2006

Alternate Ending #1
- started research Aug 2005
- started writing Sept 2005
- finished writing Oct 2005
- started posting Jan 2006
- finished posting Feb 2006
Alternate Ending #2
- started research Sept 2005
- started writing Nov 2005
- finished writing Dec 2005
- started posting Feb 2006
- finished posting Mar 2006
Alternate Ending #3
- started research Nov 2005
- started writing Dec 2005
- finished writing Jan 2006
- started posting Mar 2006
- finished posting Apr 2006
Alternate Ending #4
- started research Nov 2005
- started writing Jan 2006
- finished writing Feb 2006
- started posting Apr 2006
- finished posting May 2006

I get a lot of people asking how I came up with the idea for Soaring. It is definitely one of the most asked questions. The idea came to me when I was doing research to write Alpha & Omega. I had gathered all this info about the planet, Khivar, the Skins, and I started to think about what was real.

We have been told that Khivar and the Skins are evil, but I began to wonder what if they weren't. What if Max was the bad guy and Khivar and the Skins were trying to save Antar from him? I'd also had a dream in 2004 where Khivar was a good guy and Max was kind of crazy and scary, so it didn't seem so far-fetched.

I did more research into the show and discovered it wasn't really that hard to twist a few things that happened to make it a completely plausible idea.

After I had that idea, the story practically came to life on its own. It literally took me one month to write the majority of the story.

As dark as the story turned out, I actually invisioned it being much worse, but I thought I'd better tone it down or no one would want to read.

I had a friend, Ellie, helping me to beta and I would bounce around ideas with her, and I told her at one point that I had so many ideas of how the story could end, that I could write it five or six different ways. She was the one who suggested that I do alternate endings so I could include all my ideas.

I'd never seen a Roswell story with more than one ending and I thought it was a great idea, and I ran with it. So that is why Soaring has five endings.



Name origin - When I came up with the concept of Max being the evil one, I also had the idea that he could be equated with the angel of death. I liked the idea of the dual concept of angels, who we usually consider helpful and benevolent beings, can also be warriors and bringers of death and destruction.

So I knew that I wanted something to do with angels in the name, and I tried out different combinations of words until I came upon soaring. I liked the sound of it, plus to me it could also mean consorting and being influenced by them, also being uplifted, or even pulled down with them. I thought it was perfect for the story which can be extremely dark, but it also fitted with the alternate endings where Max is falsely believed to be evil.








Hands of an Artist

aka Hands or The Artist Series

CATEGORY: UC, L/Z (Awakened Dreamer) – Liz POV – AU no aliens
RATING: ADULT for language and sexual situations
SUMMARY: Liz is a straight 'A' student at NYU. Zan is a bad boy artist.


HISTORY OF HANDS OF AN ARITST:
- started research Sept 2005
- started writing Sept 2005
- finished writing Sept 2005
- posted Sept 2005

This is probably the second-most asked about story. It was based on a dream I had with a similar situation to the library scene in the story.

I thought the dream could make a great scene in a story and I started thinking about Max with Liz, but it seemed out of character for him. And then Zan came to me, and that was it. I sat down and wrote this in about six hours.

I decided to go with no aliens because I really didn't want to deal with the Roswell universe and why Liz left Max and hooked up with someone else, so I set it in a completely different universe where Max doesn't exist.

And I set it in NY so Liz would meet Zan on his home turf. The most plausable reason I thought for her to be there was to attend school, and I picked NYU because it was the only school I knew that was in the city. So I did some research and it turned out it was perfect.

I liked the idea of a small town Liz meeting a rougher guy like Zan. She doesn't even really know him but falls in love and in lust and can't stop thinking about being with him. (Don't we all have a guy like that in our past, girls?) He is the first guy she is having those strong feelings for. And while she wonders if he is interested, he is trying to contol himself around her and not scare her by being too agressive because he knows she is innocent.

Another tidbit about this story that not a lot of people caught, is because the title is Hands of an Artist, I concentrated on featuring that part of the body.

As you can see, I wrote this story while I was still working on the alternate endings for Soaring.



Name origin - I actually came up with a different name for the story at first 'Nude Studies'. It is a term from the art world that refers to drawing of the nude human form. I thought it worked perfectly, but my beta was completely unfamiliar with the term and found it confusing. So I wondered if anyone else would get it either.

So I started thinking of Zan as an artist, and maybe that could part of the title. The hands part came from me thinking about the situation from Liz's point of view and what he could do with them. ;)








Body of an Artist

aka Body or The Artist Series

CATEGORY: UC, L/Z (Awakened Dreamer) – Liz POV – AU no aliens
RATING: ADULT for language and sexual situations
SUMMARY: Liz is a straight 'A' student at NYU. Zan is a bad boy artist.


HISTORY OF BODY OF AN ARITST:
- no research
- started writing Oct 2005
- finished writing Nov 2005
- started posting Nov 2005
- finished posting Nov 2005

I also wrote this story while I was still working on the alternate endings for Soaring.

I really didn't intend on writing more stories in this universe. It was just a one-off. But writing Hands of an Artist seemed to inspire me and I kept thinking up more adventures for Zan and Liz, so I kept writing.

Often in these stories the naughty scenes come to me first and I constructed the scenarios necessary for them to happen. Like Liz trying to study but being completely distracted by her lust for Zan and unable to concentrate.

This one took me a little longer to write, about a week I would guess, but I was also trying to concentrate on finishing the Soaring endings.



Name origin - I just continued the idea from the first story of concentrating on the part of the body mentioned in the title.








I'm Dying Tonight

aka Dying

CATEGORY: Max POV
RATING: TEEN
SUMMARY:
Max’s thoughts and feelings as he is standing outside the observatory in ITLAITB after his fight with Liz and he thinks she has gone to Sweden.


HISTORY OF I'M DYING TONIGHT:
- started research Aug 2005
- started writing Sept 2005
- finished writing Oct 2005
- posted Nov 2005

Another story I wrote while I was still working on the alternate endings for Soaring.

This story was inspired by music. At the time, I was listening to a lot of music at work, Adema, Simple Plan, Story of the Year, Yellowcard and others, that had really sad songs. Not all of them were about the loss of love, but they all had elements of loss and disappointment in them.

I really listened to the lyrics of the songs and it occured to me that so many of them paralleled Roswell, and specifically made me think of when Max was at the observatory.

The songs that really got to me were 'Black' by Pearl Jam, 'Hurt' by Nine Inch Nails and 'Giving In' by Adema (where I got the name of the fic). Some of the lyrics from 'Black' and the passion that Eddie Vedder entones when he sings it showed Max's anguish so well. 'Love gone bad, turned my world to black, tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I'll ever be. I know someday you'll be a star in someone else's sky, but why can't it be mine?'

I thought perhaps the songs could give some insight into the reason that Max slept with Tess, so I started looking for more sad songs. I immersed myself in as many songs as I could find, and listened to them over and over, to get in the mindset.

It had never made sense to me that he could do that, and it still doesn't really. But hearing the songs describe the loss of everything and the feelings of stupidity and regret made me think of what Max would probably have experienced at that time.

And then Tess found him just at the right time when he was completely broken down. Of course she was minipulating Max into that position, so she was lying in wait for him to reach rock bottom.

Max though he'd lost everyone, his family, the person he loved more than anything, and he didn't think anything mattered any more. So he did something (or someone) stupid.

The lryics from 'Giving In' show this so well.
I'm giving in to you
take me under (I'm killing all the pain)
I'm crying tonight (i'm sick of all this pain)
watch me crumble (I'm killing all the pain)
I'm dying tonight

I really depressed myself for about a month, but I think I got a decent story out of it.

And since I was inspired by the lyrics of the songs, I decided to include them to let the readers see exactly what I invisioned Max was thinking and feeling.



Name origin - Tt is a phrase from the song 'Giving In' by Adema. It just really seemed to fit what I imagined Max was feeling that night when he thought he'd lost everything that meant something to him.








Eyes of an Artist

aka Eyes or The Artist Series

CATEGORY: UC, L/Z (Awakened Dreamer) – Liz POV – AU no aliens
RATING: ADULT for language and sexual situations
SUMMARY: Liz is a straight 'A' student at NYU. Zan is a bad boy artist.


HISTORY OF EYES OF AN ARITST:
- no research
- started writing Oct 2005
- finished writing Nov 2005
- started posting Dec 2005
- finished posting Feb 2006

Another story I wrote while I was still working on the alternate endings for Soaring.

Eyes also started with a few naughty ideas and I wrote situations to make them come true.



Name origin - I just continued the idea from the other stories of concentrating on the part of the body mentioned in the title.

I choose eyes for this story title because I wanted to start showing the situation from Zan's point of view as well - so we are seeing it though his eyes too.

My friend, Ellie, and I started to joke that there were only so many usable body parts to put in the fic titles. You obviously couldn't use certain parts, that would be kind of vulgar, and other parts would just be ridiculous. We had many laughing fits over it. After all who would read 'Elbow of an Artist', 'Big Toe of an Arist', 'Spleen of an Artist', and other equally silly posibilities. Plus considering that I was featuring the chosen body part in the story, it could get strange or even gross.








Mouth of an Artist

aka Mouth or The Artist Series

CATEGORY: UC, L/Z (Awakened Dreamer) – Liz POV – AU no aliens
RATING: ADULT for language and sexual situations
SUMMARY: Liz is a straight 'A' student at NYU. Zan is a bad boy artist.


HISTORY OF MOUTH OF AN ARITST:
- no research
- started writing Oct 2005
- finished writing May 2006
- started posting Jun 2006
- finished posting Jul 2006

Another story I wrote while I was still working on the alternate endings for Soaring.

I was really on a roll with this series and had way more scenerios than I ever thought I could use, and I really planned for this to be the last one in the series.



Name origin - I just continued the idea from the other stories of concentrating on the part of the body mentioned in the title.








Cravings


CATEGORY: UC, M/L/Z (Double Dipper) – Liz’s POV - AU no aliens
RATING: ADULT for language and sexual situations
SUMMARY: Liz goes looking for a little fun.


HISTORY OF CRAVINGS:
- no research
- started writing Jul 2006
- finished writing Aug 2006
- started posting Jul 2006
- finished posting Aug 2006

After what I thought was the last story in the Artist series, I was still fascinated by Zan and Liz and wanted to continue writing about them. But I kept thinking, 'What about Max?'. I had read the few double dipper fics but had never really thought about doing one.

I used to be in charge of the Vilondra Project writing challenge at Roswell Heaven. I made up the rules and categories, but for some reason when I posted one of the challenges, I actually thought about the category 'Author who stepped out of their comfort zone', and it inspired me.

It would certainly be out of my comfort zone to do a double dipper fic, so I got right to work.

I kept it no aliens to uncomplicate things and not have to worry about other characters or storylines. It was just going to be a simple one-off.

I also knew I wanted it to end with Liz leaving them. It had been a perfect night, a fantasy, a memory she could always have, but she didn't want to ruin it by exposing it to reality. Because after all, who would ever think it would work for more than one night. She had perfection and it could only go down hill from there.



Name origin - This name just seemed perfect to me to describe the name of the club where you could indulge in pretty much anything in public, and it also described Liz's feelings toward the two men and why she might be willing to do something unorthodox like being with both of them. She just craved them too much to think about saying no.








Waiting


CATEGORY: Zan POV
RATING: TEEN, MATURE
SUMMARY: Zan has always been waiting.


HISTORY OF WAITING:
- no research
- started writing Aug 2006
- finished writing Aug 2006
- posted Sept 2006

Since the episode 'Max in the City' aired, I have been fascinated by what Ava said about Zan always seemed to be waiting for someone. Like most dreamers, I wondered if he would have fallen in love with Liz if he'd met her.

There always seemed to be that connection between Max and Liz and, wondered if there might even have been a connection between Liz and the original King Zan on Antar. What if King Zan dreamed about his dream girl who wasn't even going to be born for decades? And what if the Zan in New York remembered?



Name origin - it just seemed perfect for the story, where Zan has been waiting for his dream girl for two lifetimes.








Appetite

aka The Cravings Series

CATEGORY: UC, M/L/Z (Double Dipper) – Liz’s POV - AU no aliens
RATING: ADULT for language and sexual situations
SUMMARY: Liz goes looking for a little fun.


HISTORY OF APPETITE:
- started research Aug 2006
- started writing Oct 2006
- finished writing Dec 2006
- started posting Nov 2006
- finished posting Feb 2007

After much begging by friends and readers, I started thinking about doing a sequel to Cravings, but I was only going to do it if I could come up with an idea at least as good as the original story. So I took a couple of months and thought about some storylines and scenarios, and finally decided I had a decent idea so I started writing.

I was kind of worried about doing another double dipper, because it still was a bit out of my comfort zone, but I was surprised at how easily it came. Maybe I shouldn't have been worried, after all I had the best inspiration in the world, Zan and Max.

Believe it or not, while I was posting this, I actually had people who wrote to me begging for action between the guys. Okay, first I am not a fan of slash. I don't read it, I don't write it. But second, HELLO!, Max and Zan are twins, brothers, siblings. You may want to see brothers go at it, but I certainly do NOT!



Name origin - When I decided to do another story in this world, I wanted to continue in the same general theme with the name, while also making it bigger and more urgent, and appetite seemed to fit.








Mind of an Artist

aka Mind or The Artist Series

CATEGORY: UC, L/Z (Awakened Dreamer) – Liz POV – AU no aliens
RATING: ADULT for language and sexual situations
SUMMARY: Liz is a straight 'A' student at NYU. Zan is a bad boy artist.


HISTORY OF MIND OF AN ARITST:
- no research
- started writing Nov 2007
- finished writing May 2008
- started posting Dec 2007
- finished posting May 2008

In the other stories in the Artist series I hinted at Zan's background, but I never really talked about how he grew up, so in Mind of an Artist, I wanted to explore that a little.

I didn't want to get to bogged down in social commentary or sins of the past because at their heart these are just smutty little romance stories, so I worked to keep it on the lighter side. But one of the first ideas I had for the story was Zan punching someone over Liz.



Name origin - I just continued the idea from the other stories of concentrating on the part of the body mentioned in the title. Mind references that we are seeing through Zan's thoughts and motivations in this story.








Hunger

aka The Cravings Series

CATEGORY: UC, M/L/Z (Double Dipper) – Liz’s POV - AU no aliens
RATING: ADULT for language and sexual situations
SUMMARY: Liz goes looking for a little fun.


HISTORY OF HUNGER:
- started research Jun 2008
- started writing Jul 2008
- finished writing Dec 2008
- started posting Jul 2008
- finished posting Feb 2009

I was in the same boat with this story as Appetite. I didn't want to do another unless I had a good storyline.

It had been about a year and a half since I'd done Appetite and I was missing Zan and Max, so I concentrated on coming up with a finale for the series.

I asked myself lots of questions. What would happen to the three of them? Could she be with just one? Would she leave them both? Could it work to have them all together? How would it happen?

I'd been reading the two series by Laurell K. Hamilton, which both feature a woman with multiple men, and while I wasn't looking to immitate her, I thought I could put my own spin on happily ever after for our double dippers.



Name origin - This was the same situation with naming Appetite, I wanted to continue in the same general theme with the name, while also making it bigger and more urgent. I have one more name I could use in this series and I'd love to do another story to use it. lol








Never Underestimate Destiny

aka NUD or Destiny

CATEGORY: M/L, Z/L, CC, UC
RATING: ADULT for language and sexual situations
SUMMARY:
What if the events around the time of the summit went a completely different way? Zan lives, and he and Ava are the ones who head to Roswell.


HISTORY OF NEVER UNDERESTIMATE DESTINY:
- started research Sept 2008
- started writing Oct 2008
- finished writing Dec 2013
- started posting Apr 2009
- finished posting Jan 2014

This is a story that I agreed to do for a high bidder in a fundraising auction. I volunteered to write a medium-length story based on what the winner requested.

The winner had the basic idea, which I loved, that Zan didn't die, and it was really him they needed to save the world and not Tess. And we really took off from there throwing out ideas until we came up with a story that we liked. It was the first time I'd worked with someone who really had veto power on story points, but it worked out because we were both thinking in the same direction. And she wanted to be surprised, so she left the end up to me!

I've always wanted to do a story where Liz had to choose between Max and Zan, and we kind of had that in this story, but it ended up with the three of them together so no one was left out. Win-win-win!

Unfortunately it seemed at times at if this story was cursed, and it kept being postponed. I was sick for months and didn't feel like writing. I was laid off from my job and concentrated on resumes and not writing for almost a year. Finally I got a job but I was working crazy long hours for several months and didn't feel like doing much writing.

We decided to fix up the house and sell it, and I was putting most of my time into that for months. I finally got back into writing again, and almost finished the fic, but I decided I hated where is was going and threw out about 10 chapters. I took a few months to really think about the ending to get it where I wanted it to be. But that was about the time we finished with the house, then I had to pack, put my stuff in storage to show the house, look for a new place, and finally move.

When I got unpacked and settled in my new place, I started writing again and I had almost finished, but my hard drive died and I lost all of that work. That really put me in a bad place for a few months. It was extremely depressing to lose all of that work, and for a while I just couldn't continue. I had to pick myself up, and get back into it again. So I finally started writing again and the new hard drive bit the dust. Luckily I had my work saved on a USB, but I had to wait another month to get my computer back.

So while it was a bumpy ride and at times people thought it would never get finished, I was determined to do it because it is such a great story and because I had promised the buyer that I would.



Name origin - I really wanted to use some kind of a play on destiny for the name of this story, because of all the times in the show that we supposedly were told what the aliens' destiny was. But in my story, destiny is not what we've been told at all. It is something so different and even shocking that no one would ever suspect. So you may think you know what destiny has in store for you, but you'd better never underestimate it.








Saving Max

aka Saving

CATEGORY: M/L, CC, AU w/o aliens
RATING: ADULT for language and sexual situations
SUMMARY: Max is a retired NBA player with a problem.


HISTORY OF SAVING MAX:
- no research
- started writing Jan 2009
- finished writing Jun 2009
- started posting Jul 2009
- finished posting Dec 2009

This is a another story that I agreed to do for a high bidder in a fundraising auction. I volunteered to write a medium-length story based on what the winner requested.

The winner really wanted a M/L AU and I had never done one before, and I really was not excited about it. I guess naively, I though that I was known for dreamer stories that were heavy on the alien history and Liz mythology, or awakened dreamer, or double dipper stories. So I was pretty dang surprised when the winner wanted an AU.

She wanted a bodyguard story, and they had been done to death in the AU fics. We talked about it but that is what she really wanted and I was determined to give her the best story I could, after all she was paying for it.

So I took her ideas and tried to put my own spin on it, making Liz a badass and Tess a complete psycho stalker, added a little smut, and what do you know, it wasn't so bad after all.



Name origin - It is a bodyguard story, and Liz has to save Max from the physical threat posed by the psycho Tess. But maybe not so obvious is that loving Liz saved Max from his empty and lonely life.








Arms of an Artist

aka Arms or The Artist Series

CATEGORY: UC, L/Z (Awakened Dreamer) – Liz POV – AU no aliens
RATING: ADULT for language and sexual situations
SUMMARY: Liz is a straight 'A' student at NYU. Zan is a bad boy artist.


HISTORY OF ARMS OF AN ARITST:
- started research Jun 2009
- started writing Jun 2009
- finished writing Feb 2014
- started posting Mar 2010
- finished posting Feb 2014

It had been a couple of years since I posted Mind of an Artist, and I hadn't really decided to do another in the series or not, but I got the idea to wrap it up with Zan proposing to Liz.

Up until now, hardly anyone beside Zan and Liz has been in the other stories, but I thought I'd expose them and their relationship to the light of day, so to speak, and I decided to introduce Zan to Liz's parents. After all, he wants to be a permanent part of her life, so he has to meet them sometime. I also thought it would be interesting to see someone who objected to them being together. And it set up a situation where they had to do a lot of sneaking around. That always ups the hot factor!

This story has also fallen into the cursed category because I've pretty much been working on it at the same time as Never Underestimate Destiny aka NUD. Perhaps I was foolish to start this story when I was having so much trouble with NUD, but I had ideas that I wanted to get down, and I though maybe this would inspire me to continue NUD.

Unfortunately, it got caught up in the same real life mess that caused me to work so slowly on NUD.



Name origin - I just continued the idea from the other stories of concentrating on the part of the body mentioned in the title. I saved Arms for what I thought would be the last story in the series, because it is the one where I envisioned them getting engaged or married, so they are litterally in each others' arms.








Anniversary


CATEGORY: M/L, CC, Liz POV
RATING: TEEN
SUMMARY:
Basically a episode tag - this takes place at the end of the episode 'End of the World', after Future Max disappeared.


HISTORY OF ANNIVERSARY:
- started research Apr 2009
- started writing Apr 2009
- finished writing Apr 2009
- posted Apr 2009

This story was inspired by a writing challenge we had at Roswell Heaven for the anniversary of the site.

The only requirement was that the story had to contain an anniversary, and this is the first thing that popped into my head. I just knew exactly what I wanted to write for it, and I sat down and finished in a couple of hours.



Name origin - The story is all about anniversaries, and Liz even gives the defination in the beginning of the story. An anniversary that Liz thought would be the worst of her life, turned out to be the best.








A Day in the Life of the Eraser Room

aka Day or Eraser Room

CATEGORY: M/L, CC, POV
RATING: TEEN
SUMMARY:
The story takes place in the episode ‘Four Square’ after Michael & Maria decide to ‘go steady’ and Isabel & Alex decide to ‘melt the ice’.


HISTORY OF A DAY IN THE LIFE OF ERASER ROOM:
- no research
- started writing Aug 2009
- finished writing Aug 2009
- posted Aug 2009

This story was written for the Eraser Room Mini Writing Challenge in the Roswell Heaven West Roswell High Summer Carnival. The only requirement was that the story had to take place in the Eraser Room.

At first I was thinking about doing a sweet little story about Max and Liz in the Eraser Room. I am not sure what inspired me to make it from the Eraser Room's POV, but it just jumped into my head. The story just seemed to flow and I wrote it in a few hours.



Name origin - It is a farily common phrase 'A Day in the Life of..." that means you are going to see what that person really does with their time. And even though this is a Max and Liz story, it is told through the perspective of the Eraser Room, along with the other things it expereinces that day.








Lollipop


CATEGORY: M/L, CC
RATING: MATURE
SUMMARY:
The story takes place after Max in the City, but I’m changing the time a bit so it is right before Halloween. So it’s after Liz pretends to sleep with Kyle, and Max still doesn’t know the truth, and Max and Liz are trying to be friends.

Liz is getting strange dreams and premonitions, but no one takes her seriously until girls in Roswell start dying.


HISTORY OF LOLLIPOP:
- started research Oct 2009
- started writing Oct 2009
- finished writing May 2010
- started posting Oct 2009
- finished posting Jun 2010

I had always wanted to do a Halloween story, and this one just seemed to fall in my lap.

Have you seen the commercial for Dell computers where they are making computers in a candy factory while singing ‘Lollipop’? I think I’ve seen it a million times, and the song stuck in my head. I was humming it night and day, and somehow that morphed into this story.

When I had the idea that the stalker/killer was really after Liz, the obvious choice to me was Rath. He had a thing for Liz in 'Meet the Dupes' and when he told Lonnie that he'd do Liz, Lonnie told him not to kill her. Which always made me wonder if he had killed other girls.

The timing of the story just happened to put it not long after 'End of the World' and I could use it not only to clear up that mess, and let Max and Liz get close again, but also to give Tess a chance to figure out who she wanted to be.

It took me a few months to write this, but it actually seemed to go pretty fast with all the other stuff going on in my life.



Name origin - Taken from the title of the song that inspired the story, and ties in with the lollipops that Rath was leaving Liz and with the girls he killed, and as part of his motivation.








Watching


CATEGORY: M/L, CC, Liz POV, futurefic
RATING: TEEN
SUMMARY:
This story follows the show up through ITL&ITB and then goes a different direction. Tess and Max slept together and she got pregnant, but Tess isn’t evil. She didn’t manipulate or kill Alex, but he was killed and they never found out who did it. Liz never went to Sweden, just like in the show, but her investigation hit a dead end.

Tess’ baby was never sick, they never found the destiny book translation, and the aliens never contemplated leaving Earth. Max just made the stupid mistake of sleeping with a person he didn’t love one night, and they have lived with the consequences.


HISTORY OF WATCHING:
- no research
- started writing May 2012
- finished writing May 2012
- posted Jun 2012

This was a short story for Roswell Heaven's Roswell 10th Anniversary writing challenge that took place May 2012. The basic premise of the the challenge was 'Where are the characters ten years after the show ended?'.

I have always wondered about what would happen if Max and Tess stayed on Earth with their child, and Tess wasn't evil. It seemed obvious to me that Max would stay with Tess and the baby. But what about Liz?



Name origin - Another short name that just seemed to fit the story. Because of the circumstances, Liz and Max can't be together and all they have of each other is watching.








Queen of Pain


CATEGORY: UC, Liz-centric, L/multi-partners
RATING: Mature/Adult
SUMMARY:
Liz leaves everything she knows behind trying to escape the pain of the past.


HISTORY OF QUEEN OF PAIN:
- no research
- started writing Jun 2010
- started posting Mar 2014
- finished writing - ongoing
- finished posting - ongoing


Queen of Pain is a story I've been thinking about for a long time. I had the basic idea for it years ago and it kind of morphed the more I thought about it.

It kind of just started out to be a smut-fest. I was going to have Liz sleeping around and then meet Zan and sleep around with him. I wrote about 3 parts of the story going in that direction, but I started to think about Liz more and what she was going through and decided to make the story focus more on her and why she was doing things and could she be 'fixed'.

All along Zan was going to be the thing that brought her out of her destructive phase. At first I intended it to be through sex, but as my Liz changed, so did my Zan. He still wants her, but he knows that isn't what she needs right now.

In my first draft, I also told the reader right up front exactly what happened in Roswell to make Liz leave town, but as I kept writing I decided to make it more of a mystery and only reveal small pieces at a time as to what went on. I think it makes it more intriguing and makes you wonder about Liz and what could have made her react the way she does.

This is also my first attempt at a story that is more emotionally and character driven. All of my other longer stories have a lot going on, a lot of action and different story lines, and this story just isn't like that. It looks at Liz's feelings and experiences and how those things have shaped her, and what happens when Zan comes into her life.








The Price of Lust


CATEGORY: UC, T/R, Tess POV
RATING: MATURE/ADULT - for violence, language and sexual situations
SUMMARY:
Tess is surprised by an unexpected attraction. But sometimes there are consequences for following your desires.


HISTORY OF PRICE OF LUST:
- no research
- started writing Jun 2014
- started posting Aug 2014
- finished writing - ongoing
- finished posting - ongoing

This was written for the Roswell Heaven Inferno challenge. In the challenge you pick one of the 7 deadly sins and write a Roswell story. Obviously, I choose lust.

I've been wanting to try writing some different UC couples, and this is what happened, lol. I have this aversion to putting Max, Liz or Zan with anyone but each other, so I went in search of other pairings. Some UC pairing are pretty popular, Is/Mi, T/Al, K/Av, Is/K, but I wanted to tackle a pairing that doesn't have much fic written about them. A few came to mind, Is/R, Courtney/Mi, Courtney/Rath, T/Mi, Av/R, Lo/Al, Lo/Mi, and I still might do a story about some of them, but Tess/Rath intrigued me the most.

It started out as a short, smutty story. I was just planning on Tess and Rath having a bit of fun behind Max and Lonni's backs, but as I was writing the sesond part, it evolved into an alt ending for season 2.

I was thinking about motivations for their 'relationship' and where it might ultimately lead, and how it could make sense out of the end of season 2 with the whole using Alex to decode the book and everything. I've never been convinced that Tess could have done all of that herself, because we saw her in Roswell that whole time.








Brick


CATEGORY: Tess POV
RATING: MATURE
SUMMARY:
Tess' thoughts starting the morning after she and Max were together. A companion to 'I'm Dying Tonight'.


HISTORY OF BRICK:
- no research
- started writing Jun 2014
- finished writing Jul 2014
- coming soon

This is another one of those stories that just sorta popped into my head. I was driving home, listening to the radio, and the song 'Brick' by Ben Folds Five came on, and for some reason it just struck me that it fit perfectly with the whole Max/Tess pregnancy thing.

I’ve always thought the song was so sad. It’s about two people who go through a terrible experience, but even though they have each other, instead of bringing them closer together they realize they’ve never been more alone in their lives.

To me it is so obvious in 'Baby It's You' that Max is just horrified by the entire situation, but Tess is so oblivious to what he is thinking. Then I started looking at screen caps from the episode when I was making a banner, and you can see the frozen, miserable expression on Max's face in so many of the shots. The song is just so descriptive of what he must be thinking.

I wrote it in about a week, and then agonized over it for about a month, trying to get it exactly how I wanted.








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